Arggggggggg!!!!

I'm not happy right now. I was looking forward to gettin' my groove on last night, but all of my kick it plans got nixed because at the last minute, folks couldn't make it. Sucks man. Considering the year, week, and day I have had, tonight was going to make things all good, at least for a couple of hours. I remember when I was a kid, my brother would always say, don't get your hopes to high. Each year, there was always talk about going to Disneyland, so every summer I would get all juiced about going, only to have them crash and burn. Every damn year!!!! I know, I know, with the circumstances the way they were, it was pretty clear why things fell through. However, it still sucked. Tonight brought back shades of that. Sometimes, whatever and how ever you are able to do it, getting away is cleansing for the spirit and the soul. I guess that's why I like to write so much. It removes me from shit for even a minute or two. Well, at least I got to beat up on my CO brothers this afternoon. In particular Monkey and Kin (who better come up off of my watch and unass those wheels too). Well, I guess I will spend my evening like every other evening this past year. Channel surfing and hoping that at least one person will pop up on AIM. Yay.